Sorry, Descartes is simplistic. Also, English mis-renders him.

Cogito, ergo Sum.

Think, therefore Am.

NOT I think, therefore I am.

The self-reference didn’t exist, in his formulation of the meaning, & that may be insiginificant to Western-religion-formed minds ( Abrahamic, or Atheism ), but it is significant as hell in the paradigms which dig into the inner-reality.

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Being able to doubt the phenomena-ocean that one is embedded-in, in no way “proves” that it is flawed.

That is … cognitive-narcissism, I think might be the way to phrase it, & nothing else.

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Love ( technically, bodhichitta:

• UnlimitABLE ( boundless in pertinence )
• Spontaneous ( you don’t make it happen, you cultivate that it happen, & it happens of its own volition )
• LovingKindnessCompassionCherishing ( English really mis-fits the energy-substance of it )
• Completely lacking in insecurity ( the ancient-texts never mentioned this dimension of it, but it was striking )

) … is a lower-harmonic of G-D. It is knowable by our-kind ( our category of sentience )

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This is going to be a bit impersonal, but try rolling with it, to see what the resultant-perspective feels like, OK?

In the beginning is latent-G-D.

No phenomena.

Exactly as Hinduism ( Simon Whistler has a vid on things that were discovered waaay earlier than people would assume, & he notes that both germ-theory & The Big Bang were established in Hinduism, centuries ago… he missed that their linear-measurement-system actually goes down to the size of an individual hydrogen atom, as its smallest-unit-of-measure: nothing’s smaller than an atom, right? They nailed that measurement-referent. )

… stated, OceanOfAllPhenomena/Universe was latent, not extant…

in Hindu parlance, universe was “an egg”.

Then BAM! Big-Bang!

Phenomena are existing!!

OK, but now you’ve got spirits that are wanting to have their own existing, right?

ChildrenOfG-D/CellsOfG-D/Souls…

( jiva, atman, rigpa, eternally-abiding-mind, etc, the label isn’t what’s important, so I’m sticking with “spirits”, for now, since the “Jacob’s Ladder” metaphor uses that term )

The more-conscious one of these spirits is, the more it can choose its incarnation, the phenomena-it-catches-in, but once caught-in-phenomena, cause->effect/action->reaction/sow->reap/karma law is on it.

the less-conscious that one of these spirits is, the more it just catches in whatever phenomena it is that caught its slumbering awareness…

Now Will/Intent is modifying what’s happening, see?

Same as a stillborn baby doesn’t grow, but a living one does, the neutrons, the protons, the electrons, they are identical between the dead & the growing-living, but the immaterial substances, the entanglement/knowing & the probability-wave/will are present among the living, but not present among the corpses…

So, ZILLIONS of spirits are competing-for the phenomena in this newborn universe…

Now you have 3 major categories, see?

• G-D
• spirits
• mere-phenomena

These little-spirits, they “climb down Jacob’s Ladder”, immersing themselves ( the “baptism” symbol-enactment is actually just representing this soul-immersing-in-universe process, btw, & the “Prodigal Son” parable is about an individual soul/spirit doing it ) in phenomena…

Trying to have indestructible-happiness by relying on “the kingdom of the world, without/external”, they keep being disappointed, getting sick or aging or getting injured, & dying.

( Buddha Gautama’s “the nature of samsara/OceanOfAllPhenomena is suffering” was specifically identifying that externally-based happiness always ends )

Eventually, these spirits reach their rock-bottom, turn, & commit to earning the inner-mountain, & they begin “climbing”, aka self-conquering…

Climbing “up Jacob’s Ladder”.

Eventually they reach sufficient realization to be able to intentionally evolve, within-single-life, instead of only unconsciously evolving, between incarnations/lives…

They evolve their way until they “return home”, dissolving back into G-D, but not unconscious, now CONSCIOUS, letting-go of all phenomena, & only BEing, forever, then…

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The Hindu statement that “countless lives, throughout endless universes, is just G-D’s way of knowing itself …”

is to me slightly-misleading:

It isn’t G-D’s way of knowing itself, rather, it is the CellsOfG-D’s way of knowing their selves.

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What is G-D?

AWARENESS.

The OceanOfAllAWAKESouls.

Individual-lives aren’t its children: they are its grandchildren.

G-D doesn’t, in any way, revolve around human-lives.

G-D cultivates its children, souls/spirits, & they evolve, at a timescale that is unimaginably vast.

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Background information:

There are 3 minds, for our perspective:

• SurfaceMind is a mirage projected by ego-distortion of the layer below it, & it dissipates every few hours: it is unsteady, & not-deep.
• LifeMind, which begins forming in conception, & shatters in death, it is operating in our dreams, & it is undertow when we are within SurfaceMind. “Realizing Zen”, in annihilating ego, annihilates the SurfaceMind projection of ego, too: that is why it is sooo much vaster than mere SurfaceMind, according to those who’ve done it.
• Continuum/Soul/EternallyAbidingMind, which is unkillable, but which dissolves-back-into-origin, when it’s finished participating in the battering-between-phenomena game that unconscious-souls play.

Also, I’m Empiricist: I don’t give a damn what any “tradition” says, rely on what TESTS to be true!

Mom had been bringing me up Catholic, but I gained strange memories, in profound-trance…

years-later, discovered that they were soul-memories from lives as … a hornet/bee/wasp, probably in Central Africa, an utterly-brainless fly, who spent an afternoon trying to understand what white lawn-furniture meant, & a particularly stupid fish, with bad eyesight.

IT TOOK ME YEARS to adjust to my worldview being instantaneously-force-reconstructed by evidence, the way that understanding hit me…

The journey continues, obviously…

There’s a Hindu named Ramana Maharshi.

To me, he’s Buddha Ramana Maharshi: he earned dissolution into OceanOfAllAwakeSouls & therefore that’s what Buddha/AwakeSoul MEANS, see?

Anybody who thinks that Buddhism’s all religious stuff, they’ve got to read Huston Smith’s brilliant & profound book “World Religions”.

( that book will exercise you, intellectually, almost-certainly. )

But “Maharshi’s Gospel” is also describing the fundamental-level:

WHEN meditation gets deep-enough, THEN … there’s no “self” anymore.

Awareness, but no Self.

THAT is what G-D is.

Primordial Awareness, see?

( the term Dzogchen is Vajrayana’s rendition of that concept )

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So, why evil, then?

Because UNconscious-spirits are self-centered, & therefore they want what others have, & more of it…

I’ve identified that human-evil has at-least these dimensions:

• narcissism
• machiavellianism
• sociopathy-psychopathy
• nihilism
• sadism
• systemic-dishonesty
• displacement-of-objectivity-for-ideology/prejudice/religion
• displacement-of-considered-reasoning-for-ideology/prejudice/religion

Now consider that unconscious-souls are more likely to use these NOT-cherishing-others dimensions in their self-gratification, right?

THAT is where evil comes from: it is simply souls greedy for self-gratification, ignorant-of-any-others’-value.

So, the majority of the souls caught in any universe are at the low-end of soul-unconsciousness, & therefore self-centrism is strong.

& the thinnest-tail of the graph, at the realized-end, is souls who are conscious, & they’re leaving unconscious-catching-in-phenomena…

Therefore, soul-unconsciousness rules the universe, overall.

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Now do you see why universes exist?

G-D, latent … doesn’t experience anything, because there isn’t any phenomena to experience.

But creation is a verb, and unless it is infested completely with awarenesses, there isn’t ano point to it, & … it is infested with spirits. Completely.

However, once one has creation, then one has to have evolution, so as to segregate the dead/inert/ignorant ( ie matter, the dead-stuff at the end of a world’s life ) from the realizations, evolved-meanings, insights, all the stuff that spirits “can take with one” beyond death", see?

& when these spirits outgrow caught-in-phenomena, then they … simply dissolve back “home”, to use the “Prodigal Son” parable’s metaphor, into G-D, but AWARE.

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This clarifies that there isn’t any understanding of what G-D is, unless there is simultaneous understanding of what souls are, & the nature & function of what-souls-get-caught-in, ie OceansOfAllPhenomena/universes.

& the assymetrical evolution: matter dies, & spirit evolves into ultra-life, simultaneously, in equal/opposite directions & measure.

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All the references to “buddha nature” are actually references to a soul’s G-D-nature, its divine/realized nature.

The reason that Buddha stonewalled the “God” question, is simply that Hindu-religion is addicted to religiosity, & Gautama was squelching that.

( as Huston Smith’s book clarifies )

But OceanOfAllAwakeSouls IS G-D.

The sticking-point isn’t that OceanOfAllAwakeSouls “doesn’t” exist, rather, it is that “self” doesn’t exist!

Therefore the entire frame-of-reference of religiosity is bogus, because it all revolves around “self”, & manufactures social-process to keep this “self” entrapped in delusion!

lmao…

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Anyways, calling G-D “The Brahman Field”, & calling Continuums/Souls “Particles of Brahman” is exactly correct, but it sooo violates White ideology, that it’ll never happen, in my lifetime.

Which is fine: I’m about done with this world’s ideology-instead-of-considered-reasoning.

Time to move-on…

( yes, it is possible to break a life’s entrapment-in-matter through meditations, & I’m getting closer to breaking the personality “me” : )