I just had to report something to the police that will probably end a very close friendship of mine, but it was something that was totally not okay and I had to do it. But I still feel like a piece of shit for it. Have you ever felt like this and how did you get through it?
There’s something to be said for putting the blame where it belongs, which is likely not on you.
If your friend did something illegal that could harm others, it needed to be handled. Period. It’s a natural response that any decent person should take. The blame is not on the reporter, it’s on your friend for doing something so bad you felt compelled to report it.
And a bonus fuck him for putting you in that position where you now have to wrestle with self-doubt. That’s not a good friend, leaving you to bear the emotional burden of his actions.