So right now I’m on a bit of a kick watching right wing youtubers get dunked on, and one of the things this particular chud keeps bringing up is how happy traditional gender roles have made him, and how he wants the same for his kids. BUT HAVE YOU CONSIDERED THEY MIGHT BE HAPPIER GETTING TO PICK IF THEY WANT YOUR GENDER ROLES OR NOT?! Its all well and good that you’re happy being the strong provider for your loving and dependent wife, and I’m genuinely happy for you (as long as she’s happy being married to a chud), but why do you not consider that I would be happier in a different relationship? What if being “biologically able to have kids” is not important to other people?

Any way just kind of a thought I had about these sorts of people. Its their roles that make them happy, or nothing. I like dogs, so you liking cats pisses me off.

sorry I try not to post about it too much because I’m not actually doing it and bringing it up brings a lot of sad vibes to the thread but whatever, I want to get this off my chest.

I keep having really strong sh urges, like I haven’t felt in a long time (maybe 2-3 years). Its so concentrated on my left arm and I know its from my general dysphoria. I hate my body so much and its just manifesting as this urge to hurt myself and its so hard. Its such a strong feeling. And its not even just for pain like it usually is, but I want to bleed too. Why is this my burden. I feel weak. The urge just keeps running through my mind. It keeps getting worse. My old scars feel like needles.

I am currently safe however.

I’m a little surprised other people view it this way, it felt like I was alone in that.

just because your body does not align with your actual gender doesn’t make you not that gender

I just don’t feel it, at least not now/yet. It feels so weird to say I’m a woman when I’m so… unwomanly.

Right now I wish I could just climb out of this corpse, but yea the best I can get is retrofitting it to be less bad.

I know it would be, and obviously I completely respect whatever feels best for other people.

Its hard to explain, but I guess I don’t/won’t see myself as a woman until I start presenting that way/passing (which will probably involve hrt and maybe I won’t even then but I’ll try not to get too doomer on something I haven’t even started). I don’t know, I just feel like I’m a guy who wants to be a girl, not necessarily a girl trapped in a guy’s body (although I am trapped in this body). I’m probably not making sense. But I won’t see myself as a woman until I get out of this guy body. And I feel like a lot of trans people do view themselves that way, as being the gender they want to be before transitioning.

I guess in general I feel like how I look (body/presentation) and am perceived is my gender, not what I wish I was. What I wish I was is just that, what I want. Not what I am.