i never had any restriction in dating or anything, i think that im just unnatractive

heart issues mean i cant go to gym and start lifting and stuff, so cant get in shape, im trying to do calistenics but they are not that good for getting big muscles

well, maybe you are right… maybe someday i will have a courage to use service of sex workers

no, i mean what if i get addicted to sex? i will just spend more money on it, than doing something towards becoming better

that i would want more and more, not sure that its will do good to my mental health

im not sure that i want to get into this loop, as an weak-willed person. After first time i would want a second one and etc, not sure that this good in a long run

thank you for kind words, you are right i dont want to burden anyone with my problems, but i just cant get this thoughts from my head… All of my friends already have some experience, and im not, Dont want it to be just experience tho, but most of them saying that those feelings are nothing that i can compare to, so im really curious and jealous of not having that level of intimacy. Im not from US, but my place is not good either, people are gloomy and mostly not friendly

for that vibe - yes, but again im not attractive at all, someone notices me and prly will think about friendship at max. I am not saying friendships are bad - no, they are good if they are genuine, but it’s just might be not what i’m looking for, or looked…

its seems nice, but i think this topics will run out pretty fast if you dont share some interests in common, at least it was for me when a person was outgoing, party type, going to concerts and stuff, and im more like a house cat. Yeah i talked with them about it for a bit but i didnt know what to ask about it. At some point i even thought to ask chatgpt what shouldve i asked :D but in my head thats not a very lively conversation

you are probably right, but most of the girls i talked with didnt have anything that we could share, so converstations end up pretty quickly, with same sex i found it much easier

i tried to chat with kinda ugly girl few years ago, but shes ghosted after few days, im probably not much of a talker, dont know how to talk with opposite sex, and we didnt have much in common

im sure nobody wants to wake up and see and ugly face beside them, they gonna feel awful seeing me, i dont want to ruin someone happines

im trying to, but whole world just keep noticing how lonely i am, when i take a walk i see happy couples on the street, when i driving a car i keep hearing music about love and ect. And all these reminders messes with my thoughts.

I dont have that problem with relatives coz i grow up with them and they are very familiar people to me, but i dont feel like talking to them about all this, i graduated from school a very long time ago, and my institute was mostly men, i remember our group of 30 people only had 2 girl, and now i work in freelance so no colleagues

Yeah you probably right, but i dont really know how to make that switch, being out of touch with opposite sex didnt do me any good and now it became hard as hell

of a girl talking to me, i didnt get any communication with opposite sex in ages, probably mental stuff, now my brain associate them as something new and overwhelming, i dont fully get it myself…