post drunk edit never

yes lol i had this exact same thought

ugh ur so right lol

this is so fucking cringe but i honestly just want to be held right now

google probably knows when im Going Through It romantically by how often i listen to I Really Want To Stay At Your House from cyberpunk and this bothers me

i probably shouldn’t have posted any of this., but im drinkin on satan’s most favorite holiday. and it’s fine. i’ll leave it up. i’ve gotten plenty vulnerable with you ne’er-do-wells over the past year so what’s one more series of posts into the void.

also yesterday (related aside but definitely an aside), i realized that i think my situationship partner is like…actually shockingly beautiful. ive been attracted to her from the get go, but it crept up on me how genuinely, uniquely gorgeous i think she is. maybe it’s partly because i do truly find her heart and mind beautiful, too, and have continued to feel that way as ive gotten to know her (like…idk in recent memory if ive felt this strongly about someone in an early-stages connection (if maybe ever? but i’m afraid to admit that)). and i also already feel this protective urge toward her because the baseline of life seems hard for her (and this dampens how close we can get quickly, which is fine and im trying to respect, but also i relate to it?) fuck, i dunno, man…

getting way more vulnerable and personal than i should here. but…

been one of those “imagining confronting my ex about all the ways i felt i was mistreated, but which i normalized” nights of drinking. full on talking to myself in front of a mirror, that kind of shit. and some of it imagining (unrealistically, exaggeratedly uncharitably) how she’d react to me feeling a new person out and calling her out on that. idk. we’re all weird in private, in the dark, once the lights are off. im just fucking weird in this way. im clearly still processing my dead marriage and idk when its gonna cease, if ever. maybe we hold the people who were once close to us forever, and that’s okay. it’s just part of life.

also gotta toast to the many heroes and martyrs felled by this satanic ontologically evil country on this profane holiday

drinking after the fucking day i had idc moderation can wait

dude had a similar experience and i was just like “yeah this just the zoomer/alpha version of peanut butter jelly time” it rlly didn’t warrant any discourse abt The Youths

tempted fate with my falling in love post, m8s…things are in a more precarious spot than i thought (though still cautiously positive and cute and nice)

Individual cops can try to be helpful at times in certain situations. I hate to say it, but policing is like other systems of violence - individuals do have some agency sometimes.

its true, ACAB moreso means “theres no such thing as a good cop (in their institutional capacity of being a cop)” though 98 percent are also bastards on a personal level especially in amerikkka

yeah im hoping they can get the care they need, last i overheard is he was in the hospital

ha ha and immediately after i had a stressful call with my love interest where i was certain she wanted to end things despite things going really well last night haha fuck me what a day lets try and have a good death to america day ya’ll

(the convo did end positively though, but we did also clarify we need to keep moving slow and talked through some early days of relationship anxiety she has and how shes in a p unstable place rn. it ended on a note of still really liking and appreciating each other and agreeing being together felt good and we have another date lined up weekend after this upcoming one.)

holy shit falling in love rules!!!

i mean uh, from what i’ve read. for other people, y’know. i wouldn’t know anything about that, personally…

EDIT: flew too close to the sun with this one, comrades…things are in a more precarious spot than i thought (though still cautiously positive and still pretty cute :3 )

like why not just make it back circle or forward circle if ur averse to the typical double quarter circle motion? idk. never got it. they’ve axed other finnicky legacy shit for this game.

i know it’s a skill issue but i really wish guilty gear would just retire the back circle forward super input, especially since it’s only selectively applied to certain characters. ive played this shit since release and am still so inconsistent with it

started typing something in more detail, but i’ll keep it simple and say that i feel where you’re at, i ended my partnership of almost 9 years about a year ago and while its been a tough year in many ways, it was the right choice. you should always listen to that inner voice about these things, it leads to either ending a relationship that isn’t meant to be anymore (which is in everyone’s benefit long-term, even if it doesn’t feel that way), or having a frank-but-difficult discussion that leads to mending the parts of your relationship that aren’t working (though in this case it sounds like your mind is already pretty made up). best of luck to both of you at this deeply painful crossroads, i hope you both come out on the other side better for it.