I used to be super religious. I even studied to be a priest. Married a super religious lady. Then like five guys I went to seminary were in jail for pedos. Last one hit too close. It devastated my faith. Then my wife cheated on me. We had a lot of catholic friends. When she got pregnant they threw a party for her and turned their back on me. That was enough of that. I’m now an Atheist. Christianity is a cult. Not just one denomination. All are cults. Fuck that.

People have been vocal about me being an atheist. My health is not well. Talked to my mom about death. Pretty much she told me she would give me a catholic funeral even if I don’t want it.

One thing I can tell you. Women all are looking for that good Christian man. So I’ve been single since the. I had a fling with someone after the divorce but I think that was a mistake.

Still not over my piece of shit wife. Catholic friends refer to her as my wife. Not my ex. Married for ever thing.

Honestly I miss going to church and involved with everything. But never going back to that. Amen

Feel you buddy. I was working nights for years. I felt so isolated. It would take weeks before I would talk to a human face to face. I would go to work by myself. No one there. If you need a someone to talk to hit me up.

Learn how to code

Guess we still have good people.

It’s due to auditory processing issues

Have the billionaires for lunch.

The cranberries Zombie. Possibly the best song out there

Not super consistent but about ten years. I have worked things out by journaling while therapy was not useful. Journaling is powerfull

Fire the firer

I’m in engineering. If I tell someone I work for the phone company they think I work on phones. Not sure what my mom thinks I do.

I have a blue sky account. But I’m mainly on the fediverse

Elijah Craig is the money

I saw the US version. I knew I wanted to mess with it. Asked my parents for a computer for years. Finally got one in 1990. Love my super old IBM XT

Chile verde burritos. Comfort food.

Dreams on psych meds are a trip. Started taking resperidone and had a colorful dream of a matrix like a blanket that I would push on and I felt the push somewhere else on my body.

There’s been other dreams like that too. I had a dream of my ex wife the other day. It felt so real, it shocked me it wasn’t real. Honestly made me depressed

We have a moron rapist criminal running the country raising our cost of living. My ex wife left me six years ago and it still hurts today. I can’t believe I’ve not gotten over her. On the positive I get to live my life loving my cat. So grateful for him. Even if he bites me when he thinks I’m starving him to death but I just fed him a bit ago. lol

Went to this ice cream shop. This lady talked about all her tattoos. They all looked awful like a toddler did them. She said that she proudly stated that all her tattoos were done by her ex.

My college buddy first told me about Linux at around the start of 1998. After some research I decided I would make the switch at the end of the semester. For a couple years I had mac but I’ve always had a Linux box running.

I call it chasing the dragon. Whether you drink or smoke or whatever. If you decide to part take the problem will be back there waiting for you.

With that said I really miss smoking weed. Last night I imagined puffing a joint and it felt so real. I might go back to smoking weed but at the same time I’m really afraid. I relied on weed and alcohol way too much. They were the darkest nights of my life. Pretty freaking bad. I don’t want to go back there to that misery.

My computer and my cat