If it helps this could have been quoted from my journal like a year ago. Its hard, try to let yourself be guided by what feels right, I had a very hard time listening to myself, trusting myself, and even knowing how I felt. Its hard to parse genuine anxiety about things you don’t want to do, and the anxiety about what other people will think or say to you if you do them.
Fucking sucks ass. I hate it. It takes up to a week for me and the whole time I look so gross.
Last time it was a small enough amount of hair I just epilated the whole thing took like 2 hours and many tears but felt so much better than waiting with the gross burnt hair on my face and having to go to work with it.
There’s not much thay has grown back this time, especially since I have no shaved just epilated. Feels really nice. Its mostly super blonde/light hair left, which will probably need electrolysis.
I should say I use the term to mean something more than just the small baeddel groups that existed before. The rethoric is still alive and VERY spread out on tumblr, the old baeddel accounts are still around. Baeddelism the small movement might have been a niche overly online thing but the broader rethoric is still here, just more hidden now. Its gotten to the point where on tumblr if I see someone using the terms tme or tma I systematically check their other posts or who they repost, and almost every time I can find this baeddel or tirf stuff underneath. It made me very sad and anxious because you find it in very popular and well known accounts.
Terfs have found a way to remake arbitrary binaries and to use them for splitting the community more and more. Its a poison. You wouldn’t believe the insane harassment and drama that transmasc accounts on tumblr, twitter, etc… already went through.
I honestly think its a contributing factor to why there are less transmasc comrades here, because if you see a place that’s not actively fighting against this rethoric its fair to assume its been spreading there unknowingly.
Very good that you looked into the original’s sources and the weird terf shit, and yes the new one removes those. Its a weird fucking movement and rethoric and it disguises itself behind terms and concepts, and the whole time terfs and tirfs stir shit up and try to split communities further, its good to tread carefully.
I’m honestly convinced its mostly built and spread by terfs and tirfs in the background, its classic terf op, and at the same time they split the trans communities and encourage harassment or transmascs, enbies, intersex, etc… comrades, they also have some other rethoric to try and reach them. They push transmascs away then whisper their terf “you see? They hate you!” Poison in their ears.
Seeing stuff like this and some of the discourse/responses around it reminds me that I should really do an effort-post about baeddelism and all the fucking “tma/tme” brainworms that emerge from this new kind of terf rethoric, a lot of it tends to (badly) quote serano and misuse the concept of transmisogyny. Its already destroyed large parts of transfem tumblr and is doing enormous harm to many transmasc and enby friends.
I’m extremely worried about this shit spreading here, I’m already seeing the milder variants of that rethoric spread.
(For context, a decent primer on the insidious reaction that is baeddelism : https://www.tumblr.com/nothorses/743139329546846208/lets-talk-about-baeddels)
i’ve dated very little but my current partner is enby, and my ex (for complicated personal reasons) left her country to move with someone else, cut all contact with her family, and a few years back completely dropped off the internet as well and people who knew her before she left the country have not heard about her at all, the guy she was with says she’s fine but basically avoids giving any current details about her. Not in like an ominous way I think, but in a way that makes me think he’s trying to avoid bringing up the past and deadnaming.
Soooo given my track record, and what I remember of them, I think it’s very likely I should no longer gender my ex in the feminine.
That’s normal! I wish people had told me ahead of time.
Basically your hair is burned and you won’t be able to shave it really well for a bit, usually for me some of it looks somehow darker/thicker in patchy ways and after 4-6 days it falls out and then it’s all smooth. A lot of the hair is burned and the root is dead, and it has to grow a little bit to fall.
yea, it’s data transformation but there is zero intelligence, context or anything “new”.
The tool itself is fine when used clearly and purposefully, and those kinds of tools have been used for a long time in various fields, the problem I have with the current hype trends of ““AI”” is that literally nothing fundamentally new was made. People aren’t being informed on how these things really work and what they do, there’s a lot of dangerous practices and psychological manipulation, and above all these new large models are enormous labor-obfuscating machines. I don’t give a shit about private property, IP laws, etc (because I know that’s a common response), the problem is that these things are another layer of illusions, an enormous curtain hiding entire industries of data-scraping and theft, of countless people and hours of manual tagging, filtering, training, moderating and mechanical turks, in purely profit-seeking and reckless ways. And not only is all this labor not valued, people aren’t even aware it exists, people never have to interact directly with anyone along that production chain. Entire industries becoming ghosts, non-existent, and even more unable to organize and struggle for what they create.
Beyond that, class consciousness is ever harder to teach and agitate for in these domains, because shit like this is purposefully built to hide and disguise exploited labor (often from the labour force of the colonized and victims of imperialism) and privatization.
It’s not the stealing that’s the problem it’s the sneaky, rapid disruption and destruction of existing productions and jobs that it entails, and the privatization of colossal amounts of public data and user-generated data that nobody ever intended to be privatized and extracted for profits. It was always happening in the background of course, but i don’t think people realize the impact this will have, to me it’s like a closure of the internet-commons. Colossal explotation of Free Labour, the expansion of exploitation in every sphere of “content production” that was previously unreachable.
Drives me fucking insane.
Not only is the summary kinda light or missing the deeper points, the LLM did not “break down” the plot by “reading” the provided PDF. House of Leaves is impossible to fucking parse correctly as a PDF, the text is all over the place, visually placed in very complex ways, you have a whole labyrinth chapter where you have to follow footnotes across multiple pages with the text being difficult to find and follow, anything “reading” the PDF in the regular order of characters would have no fucking clue.
As always, there is no intelligence or any breaking down, the only reason the LLM is able to provide the summary is because it was trained on a dataset that included summaries and reviews of House of Leaves, and it simply detected the PDF was House of Leaves.
The LLM is, YET AGAIN, just regurgitating things that are already written elsewhere, nothing is created, it’s all obfuscation of labour.
Yea these are mainstream and so mostly bourgeois sources
I think mainstream média sources in France are limited and will not want to admit that its because people hate macron or the Olympics. So those few sources are what gets translated
That’s not at all why people are talking about it what the fuck? It has nothing to do with seeing the clean-up of the river as “wasteful spending”, it’s because everyone fucking hates Macron lmao.
The “clean-up of the Seine” is a recurring joke, multiple presidents and mayors of Paris have promised it over the decades and it never ends up happening, and this time as well everyone laughed and said “if we actually see him swim in it, I’ll eat my hat”.
It’s because we hate macron, and it’s because people really dislike the Olympics as well. The olympics are wasteful spending, very badly organized, and they’re going to a complete shit show to the delight of everyone outside Paris, myself included.
Oh yea i love her tweets. But sometimes it dies hurt a bit…
Halimede is a bit account by the way, it’s an account run by a transwoman doing a bit by posting like the character Halimede from a video game, said character is a lesbian chaser. Her posts are very funny but should not really be taken seriously in most cases.
Hey so macron just announced he’s dissolving the assembly, snap elections the 30th of this month
Lmao
Edit: this came as an announcement right after the european election results in france where the far right had a huge victory, i’m not really sure what his plan/strategy is, with this timing it feels like it’s going be very easy for the far-right to organize and the left is a clusterfuck right now.
Let’s go i got my first appointment to start HRT in like 2 weeks !!
Have not started hormones yet, but I can say castor/ricin oil works wonder on the front of my scalp. I do a full scalp mask maybe once a week, and sometimes on other nights i put a little on the temple. Lots of baby hair on the front and it can’t be the E since i haven’t started ^^
Trans inclusive radical feminism, as in a trans terf, and yes they exist, yes it’s fucked.