magi [null/void]

Disembodied void goblin queer, always watching

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Cake day: November 3rd, 2023

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  • Yeah I remember I didn’t really understand the difference between being intersex and being trans

    Mhm that’s pretty much how it was for me, I knew something was up with me then seeing the trans character in the crying game I was like oh they’re like me then, and it took more knowledge to eventually understand which took time. I knew about cross-dressing from tv probably too and I watched music videos a ton there were queers all over music in the 80s and you’d see a lot during the 90s too, plus talk shows and shit anything I would catch some kind of different presentation I found it fascinating, and internally I was just slowly building my understanding.

    When I saw ace ventura I thought the trans character was just wearing a disguise, like a scooby-doo villain

    lol when I seen it I was just reminded of the crying game and then I was upset and angry at it being used as shock value and all that again, more of this shit is what I thought. And then having family pointing out how fucked up it is etc it’s like sitting there hearing their transphobic shit it really made me angry but I had a lot of other reasons to hate my family by that point.




  • I kind of enjoyed puberty, like my body revealed more that I wasn’t cis… like I started to grow boobs and more of an hourglass figure. But that brought it’s own issues with trying to hide it somewhat in school and such though cis people are blind to things and it wasn’t that hard to just hide the boobs and my form, um it was all pre internet too so like nobody had any idea of anything bar cis normativity. I’d be bullied pretty hard for looking queer and for looking like I wore makeup, I didn’t think about anything role related to gender as I am agender lol so it kind of just was like I don’t fit with what I knew of like “boys and girls” I was a mix of both… and that kind of made things a bit weird but also I just wanted to understand and find others like me but had no way to do so. I had no friends, never knew any queer people. I would get bullied at school, go home and usually have some form of abuse at home too.

    was ace ventura

    Yeah that was a parody of the crying game… so like I also seen both movies back then and it set me back quite a bit along with seeing transphobia and such so it wasn’t exactly a great time. I kind of had an idea from then and basically tried to find more people like me but I didn’t have access to much and so a lot was paying attention to tv and news and such to see if anything or anyone else showed up, it was more way later that I started to understand the exact names and build up a clearer picture exactly what/who I was. But I kind of knew what I was just had no names or terminology to go from


  • You could look online for info on how to manage your social battery. You should be able to find tips that suit you and how you socialise and work on ways to manage social interactions better to be able to recharge effectively.

    There’s things like take breaks for a minute or two to ground yourself whilst having an interaction. Interact in smaller groups if possible. Don’t spread yourself too thin, learn to say no to interactions you don’t need to have. Do things you enjoy like hobbies on your downtime as these help regulate your emotions and stress levels. Spend time in nature or make quiet time (no noise time, earplugs or noise cancelling or some pink noise low) can help ground yourself. Even lowering the volume of noises around you (via loops or earplugs) can greatly help with overstimulation.