Love to see a bunch of shit I’m not qualified for and then a bunch of things that don’t begin to cover my expenses and feel bad about myself and my circumstances and cry and eventually put one application for a custodian position with the county because what the fuck else will I do
I know if I went back to school and finished a degree it would give me a leg up but I just can’t fucking handle the workload of work and school anymore, I feel like such a lazy piece of shit but I just don’t have it in me anymore to keep this shit up
Dealing with a lot of dark thoughts today. Very dark.
What are expenses? Do you need a certain number of hours a week to make them, or a certain wage on top of that?
It’s depressing as fuck, it’s the most degrading process in modern life together with looking for a flat to rent. They’re both novel artificial scarcities designed by the system to keep us impoverished and exploited, trying to make us feel worthless so that we’ll accept worse conditions.
Another depressing thing was a study some years ago showing that about 50% of positions offered are actually fake, the main reasons being that if you open fake vacants you can pretend your company’s growing, and that you can keep your understaffed team more content if you pretend to be looking for more staff.
Job-hunting depression is complemented by the false ego boosting that occurs while you’re employed or studying.
When you’re “in”, you are encouraged to overestimate your own contribution to the economy/world. No one keeps each other in check. Then when you’re unemployed, you are forced to confront the reality of your position as a replaceable laborer. Mere personnel. It’s like this at every level, people lying to themselves and each other about their importance, and denigrating the unemployed in order to solidify their own tenuous position.
capitalism is specifically designed to make you feel useless when doing anything that is not producing profits for your boss. it’s all nonsense dude, nothing that has anything to do with getting a job has anything to do with who you are as a person.
a bunch of shit I’m not qualified for
often these postings are made by HR people who don’t actually know shit about the position. my job ad asked for experience in a language that hasn’t actually been used in this company for fucking years, i knew that language and then straight up lied about knowing the one we actually use. i apologise if i’m stating the obvious here comrade, but some people in my life don’t do this – 100% apply to shit you’re not qualified for and lie about anything that no one can prove. fuck those corpos, good luck
The slave is sold once and for all; the proletarian must sell himself daily and hourly.
The individual slave, property of one master, is assured an existence, however miserable it may be, because of the master’s interest. The individual proletarian, property as it were of the entire bourgeois class which buys his labor only when someone has need of it, has no secure existence. This existence is assured only to the class as a whole.
Theres something very dark and twisted in telling people how high youll jump for them in order to survive. I remember being unemployed last year and doing the dumbest most degrading shit for job interviews.
One literally had me do a math test, which I did poorly at, before being asked to do it again. Then they asked me what I wanted to do for a career, which I told them some generic answer until they kept asking and got a real answer, which I told them ideally Id be a professional musician. Which they didnt like. Go figure.
Like normalize just trying to survive. Come on.
I interviewed for a job years ago that would have involved setting / stocking shelves for a grocery chain, distinctly remember the guy visibly losing interest when I said I hadn’t researched the companies mission and core values. Like oh wow I really want to slurp up whatever bullshit the marketing team decided to put up on their website, suck off me.
distinctly remember the guy visibly losing interest when I said I hadn’t researched the companies mission and core values.
oh my god, what kind of dork even cares about that shit?
Internally, no one. Externally, also no one. It is entirely in the boundary of preliminary hires and preliminary large scale clients, and nothing else
I swear the process is designed to discipline labor. It’s a weird hazing ritual we’ve normalized as part of making a living so you feel indebted to whoever hires you for ending the madness.
It kind of feels like the internet ruined it a bit. Jobs are so fucking competitive now, and posted so far and wide, that everyone is desperately jumping through hoops submitting white-hot applications. I can’t just walk in an ask around, and get lucky. Why would they take a risk on me when they can send the job posting out to the most overqualified candidates in the area?
Corpo ghouls call this “churn” and it’s intentional. They want everyone to be in precarious positions so they can be exploited for less.
Holy shit I hate job hunting so fucking much. It feels like it is designed to make neurodivergent people suffer. My last interview was a group interview and fuck I should have just left. Never agreeing to another one of those torture sessions again.
To be fair it’s made to make everyone suffer. Not saying it’s not worse for NDs but it’s bullshit anyway
From what it looks like out there, “job hunting” often feels more like “job begging” complete with the acts of humiliation, the requirement to roam around and count on the vanishingly scarce generosity of others.
As a formerly homeless person myself, I think I know those dark thoughts because I’ve had my own. Sometimes, only spite kept me going.
I have no meaningful advice that you probably haven’t already heard, except that I believe that every day you’re alive is one day closer to outlasting this.
You deserve to live a full and flourishing life, Comrade.
I’m sorry Capitalism failed you. This isn’t your fault.
Yeah, you have my empathy, job hunting is brutally alienating, and as with so many things under Capitalism the cruelty is the point. Hope you manage to find something that doesn’t totally suck!
Me but with dating sites.
You deserve the world
I’m worried I’ll have start this again soon. My boss and workplace seem very accommodating for bereavement but I’ve just handed off all my clients and I’ve been ghosted by workplaces before. Also, casual so “bereavement leave” is just me not getting any hours
