lately i’m thinking about some talking heads lyrics. not a band i think of around my gender a lot, mostly i think about autism, but they’ve got some stuff
Lost my shape
Trying to act casual
Can’t stop
I might end up in the hospital
Changing my shape
I feel like an accident
They’re back
To explain their experience
spoiler
He would see faces in movies, on TV, in magazines, and in books
He thought that some of these faces might be right for him
And that through the years, by keeping an ideal facial structure fixed in his mind
Or somewhere in the back of his mind
That he might, by force of will, cause his face to approach those of his ideal
The change would be very subtle
It might take ten years or so
Gradually his face would change its shape
A more hooked nose
Wider, thinner lips
Beady eyes
A larger foreheadHe imagined that this was an ability he shared with most other people
They had also molded their faces according to some ideal
Maybe they imagined that their new face
Would better suit their personality
Or maybe they imagined that their personality
Would be forced to change to fit the new appearance
This is why first impressions are often correctAlthough some people might have made mistakes
They may have arrived at an appearance
That bears no relationship to them
They may have picked an ideal appearance
Based on some childish whim, or momentary impulse
Some may have gotten halfway there
And then changed their mindsHe wonders if he too might have made a similar mistake
I broke down crying when he played it. Until very recently, I never did that. But every lyric in that song resonated with me. I’m glad it could bring you some Happiness too. It’s kinda low key my anthem right now.
Its not even the kind of music I would normally listen to, but its been on repeat this last day. Idk it just hits all the right spots of my heart.