lately i’m thinking about some talking heads lyrics. not a band i think of around my gender a lot, mostly i think about autism, but they’ve got some stuff

crosseyed and painless

Lost my shape
Trying to act casual
Can’t stop
I might end up in the hospital
Changing my shape
I feel like an accident
They’re back
To explain their experience

seen and not seen

spoiler

He would see faces in movies, on TV, in magazines, and in books
He thought that some of these faces might be right for him
And that through the years, by keeping an ideal facial structure fixed in his mind
Or somewhere in the back of his mind
That he might, by force of will, cause his face to approach those of his ideal
The change would be very subtle
It might take ten years or so
Gradually his face would change its shape
A more hooked nose
Wider, thinner lips
Beady eyes
A larger forehead

He imagined that this was an ability he shared with most other people
They had also molded their faces according to some ideal
Maybe they imagined that their new face
Would better suit their personality
Or maybe they imagined that their personality
Would be forced to change to fit the new appearance
This is why first impressions are often correct

Although some people might have made mistakes
They may have arrived at an appearance
That bears no relationship to them
They may have picked an ideal appearance
Based on some childish whim, or momentary impulse
Some may have gotten halfway there
And then changed their minds

He wonders if he too might have made a similar mistake

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    Starcraft campaign

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    Jim Raynor: Sarah, is that really you?

    Kerrigan: To an extent… I’m far more than I once was, Jim. You shouldn’t have come here.

    Jim Raynor: But the dreams… I dreamed you were still alive… that somehow… you were calling to me.

    Kerrigan: I was. While I was in the chrysalis, I instinctively reached out to you and Arcturus telepathically. Apparently, Arcturus sent Duke here to reclaim me. But that was then, Jim. I am one of the Zerg now. And I like what I am. You can’t imagine how this feels…

    Jim Raynor: So what? Are you goin’ to kill me now, darlin’?

    Kerrigan: It is certainly within my power. But you’re not a threat to me, Jim. Be smart. Leave here now, and never seek to confront the Zerg again.

    Jim Raynor: Doesn’t look like I have much choice.

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    Girls & Boys by Blur! My mom put it on a mixtape she made me when I was little that I can only describe as "a prayer for a gay child.

    Girls who want boys
    Who like boys to be girls
    Who do boys like they’re girls
    Who do girls like they’re boys
    Always should be someone you really love

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    So as corny as this is going to sound, yesterday I was talking to the only person irl that I’ve told I was trans. Anyway, I was telling him how even though coming out to my husband last week had temporarily driven a massive wedge between us while he processed what I told him, and that I was an anxious wreck because I thought I’d ruined my relationship with my husband because I went so long keeping this inside. But, in the end it had brought us closer together than we’ve ever been. And I told my friend that to me life is a never ending game of “find the silver lining”.

    Well then my friend put this song on, and the song absolutely gutted me. I don’t know if it pertains specifically to my gender, but it definitely resonated with how I felt my journey is going. I’ve listened to it before but I had never really listened to it. Anyway, here’s the song:

    My silver lining - first aid kit

    https://youtu.be/FkBO7R-k5m8?si=xS3QFkL7V-5j1A2F